I love the idea of going out and making friends. I love the idea of being fearless and willing to try anything and everything. I love the idea of being confident and calm and just taking life in stride. But here’s the thing: that’s not the way I am.
I know I’m really in my head and I have a tendency to overthink and stress about the things that I shouldn’t. I know that I am good at being a friend and not as good at making friends because I can never be certain of the way that people will see me. I know that when I get too stressed or worried or anxious I tend to shut down and it’s almost like my head is in the clouds and my thoughts are running wild and pretty much every worst case scenario is on my mind.
But here’s another thing: I don’t want to let this control me. I don’t want to just accept that I’m sometimes prone to overthinking and becoming anxious over the little things. I want to work with it. I want to know myself and my limits and push the boundaries of my comfort zone. I want to try all new things despite my worries and connect with new people. I don’t want to just let myself go through life with my head in the clouds and my thoughts being all over the place and my experiences being limited because of how my thoughts work.
It’s not going to be easy and I’m not always going to succeed at pushing my comfort zone and not letting my worries control me BUT the least I can do is try and I’m willing to do that.