I hate telling my friends about the things I’d like to do for the rest of my life. Mentioning my blog, my love for photography, my desire to do something just like this for a long time.. it just fills me with this feeling that they, with their dreams of being doctors and dentists, they with their practical lifestyle goals, will mock the things I love. So instead of saying anything, I just keep my mouth shut. I don’t say that I have a blog that I post on weekly, I don’t mention the shoots I do every once in a while or the connections I’ve made to learn more about the industry I am interested in.
Maybe this feeling of shame about the things I love is an irrational feeling. Maybe this fear of telling people what I’d like to do instead of just shrugging and acting like I don’t know is what’s holding me back from showing them that just because a passion isn’t practical or conventional, that doesn’t mean it can’t become something great. Maybe it just feels like the shame of being different. I’m not ashamed of the things I love. I just feel this sense that because it isn’t a conventional dream, because it might not work out and it all depends on the work I put in, it might not even be worth mentioning.
Note to my future self and to anyone else reading this: there is no shame in doing what you love. It doesn’t matter if your dreams are wildly different from everyone else’s. It doesn’t matter if the people around you think you’re insane for pursuing something like that. There is a beauty in embracing the things that make you the happiest and in embracing even your craziest passions. There is a reason our world is so diverse and interesting and it is because people went out there with no shame and no regret, did what they loved, and turned that into a lifestyle, proving to us all that doing what you love is the best way to live your life.